Wednesday, December 31, 2008

13 years today

I know that there is nothing that I can do about it, but I can remember. Almost like it was yesterday. I miss my baby. I missed out on so much, and here I am 2and 1/2 months away from 37, and still no children. I envy those who are able to become pregnant on their own. I do not envy their losses, that is a hurt never forgotten, butthe fact that they can become pregnant with their husband without a doctor is something that I will never have without the help of GOD.

It is even harder to believe that it has been over a year since I lost my lasy pregnancy. I am alone in my hurt. I hurt mor ethan anyone knows. I find it harder since I have been on the meds to show emotion. I am sure that is one of the side effects. I am just heartbroken. Is there nothing for me?

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