Friday, December 19, 2008

Well....I am alone

I am alone in my suffering even more than I thought. I will try so hard not to allow anyone else to know how I feel. The hurt is mine. I should not expect others to understand how I feel.

I will long for my babies in secret. I was just hoping for a miracle so badly. I want to be a mommy. I want to feel my baby move inside of me.. I want to see a heartbeat for the first time, and joy in that.

I am not worthy of such a thing.

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