Dreams

I have been having dreams about babies, and pregnancy as of late. Alot of them. last night for instance I dreamed that I was breast feeding, and that I was worried about having enough milk for my baby. It was strange. I guess it is just my mind's way of coping. I would love to be able to breast feed my baby. There is something I have to do first....Get pregnant! I have never had a pregnancy in my womb. I could not even imagine that feeling of having a baby that would grow to term inside of me, and feel himor her moving and depending on me to live.

That would be so awesome. I still do not want to get my hopes up about IVF because every time we make a plan to do something on the fertility front it gets thrown to the back burner. I just feel so sad about the dreams and the longing to be a mother, and wanting that feeling of having a child inside of my body. It is apparent that is what a lot of women want as there are so many of them seeking treatment for infertility.

I don't know what to do about the drams and am so unsure about everything that I am feeling as far as my body going through another IVF. It just seems so hard to digest all of this, and I really do not have anyone to share all of this with so I write it down. I guess I will write more as it comes.

Amy