It is a part of life, and sometimes (more often than not in my case) that means going through over and over again. I must admit though that I am not trapped by the sad thoughts like I have been. I am learning to live with what I have been dealt and that is a good thing.
I will not lie and say that it doesn't hurt because it does, but 13 years is a long time and I have to move from this place or I will not grow. I feel like I am leaving my babies behind in a way. It is an odd feeling. I know that I will always love and miss them, but I also cannot continue to live like I have been. I want to know who I am again. I used to love to read and thanks to my lovely bloggy friend Stacey I am getting that stirring again. She by the way has truly been an inspiration to me, she is more powerful than she will ever know--and humble to boot. Her words do more good than she could ever imagine, and her kindness to me has gone a long way. I am thankful for her and the precious women who have left their thoughts and offers of prayers here. Thankful indeed.
Going through does not mean that you are always suffering, it just means that you are just "going through" a rough patch, and when you are past it you can go on. I feel like going on. I must admit that I am not a physically well person, but there is nothing wrong with my mind, and I can still love, help, and be helped. I used to go to the SA and help out there too. It made me feel needed. It made me feel like if one more person was able to accept Christ because of something that I said or did I was blessed too.
I can't do that anymore, but I am sure that if I put my mind to and my heart in it I can find a way to help. I am trying to say thank you for finding me when I was lost Jesus. Thank you for sending your angels to guide me out of this very sad dark place in my life. Thank you Lord for hearing me when I could not hear you.
You all have supported me so much more than you will ever know. Okay tearing up now time to go...... Thanks again.....
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Talk about tearing up! Amy, thank you for your kind words. You have blessed me in many ways too and you probably don't even know it.
This post makes my heart happy. You're right, 13 years is a very long time, especially to endure the things you've endured. We're never really "over it" but we can move ahead with life and find joy again. I'm so glad that you're in a better place these days. I know there will still be sad days, and that's to be expected.
Oh boy, I can't wait to find out what books you'll read! :)
Love ya.
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