April 15th

Is the big day, I finally meet my surgeon. I suspect that my situation was bad enough tha instead of the July 7th appointment that they had set for me they were able to get me in much sooner.

I have been so doped up as of late I have not been much of a blogger or much at keeping up wih those blogs that I follow. For that I am so sorry.

On the infertility front, nothing new, just really sad. I am so not looking forward to life without children. There were so many things that I wanted to be able to teach them. I wanted to show them how to hatch baby chicks. That was one of the best things that my dad showed us how to do and we were so amazed. I loved that he gave me the love of all things growing and nature itself.

I must also mention that I am mre than tired of the "mother" of these poor little babies making a name for herself and people like me and so many others get theown in a dark room and forgotten about. i am no longer watching Dr. Phil because he has just flooded his shows about this so called mother and her issues.

I am just sick to death of the whole saga. I hope that one day these kids grow up and find out what the rest of the world already knows about their "mother", that she is a lost, selfish, ignorant, hot mess. That is my toast to her.

I know so much of this is the drugs talking, but I am tired of being infertile!!!!! I want children too I want for someone to recognize that you are not infertile if you have 6 pregnancies through IVF one of them with 8 babaies! I want someone to know how much it cost for someone even with insurance to have a treatment! I want them to know that there is no help for someone who cannot afford donor eggs!

I want someone to hear me! I am infertile. This woman used the system and all of her wiles to get what she wanted! I can't get any help at all. I can't even adopt and this nut case can have 14 children. Give me a break! And if her Father bought a 500,000 house I will kiss the but of the monkey that the money came from. that house was bought off the backs of these poor babies.

Can you tell that I am sick of it? I need help too, we all do. We need fair treatment. We need someone to bring us on a show and ask us how they can help us.

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